Last blog I was asked what is my calling or why am I here, I wish to answer this by telling you who my character is or who am I, because who I am is my calling. I answered short and sweat that who I am is. (I am who I am. I am not thee I am. I am that which was created perfectly by thee I am. Given the greatest gift to be what I am. Shadowing as a speck to be what thee I am created which I tainted, because I am still learning what it is to love. Which is what it means to be I am.)This week I was asked to define that answer. I said a lot of I am's the reason for this is because it is a perfect definition and description of myself and my God. I could describe God all day all powerful, full of love, all mighty, all just....and so on but by saying as God described himself, I am who I am, I miss nothing in describing him or myself even though my description would be more like hyper, loud,...and you get the point.
Next I said I was created by thee. which I don't think needs any more defining I was designed created and am used by God.
I go on to talk about the gift God has given me. God made this world perfect. and man's sin destroyed ourselves but not what God created. He gave us life. He gave us choice and knowledge to decide to follow him or live for ourselves. What a true Gift is that to choose life, choose our path that God will use as we seek him, and how great is it to choose to serve the master that made us and given the ability to prove ourselves. But we have tainted that as humans with sin that which I may not have started by eating my own fruit of tree, but which I continue to do, God can not be any part of sin he is its opposite, but we being of sin are given grace and mercy to live in his perfect world. My gift is life when I deserve destruction if not punishment by not fully embracing the gift I have been freely given.
And last I am learning what it is to love. Are master goal as Christians to know love and to be radiant of it. God is love, to know God, is to know love. I am man, I feel I know myself, and to know myself, gives knowledge of desires which are both good and bad. Love is a decision, a goal, a life, and a expression. I was made to love. I learn what love is by God showing his love to me and by how I treat and care about others.
Who am I or what is my calling, I am the fallen gift that was asked to do the easiest thing which is to love and be loved in return, and which I fail daily at, but am not destroyed even though it is what I deserve. So I may find a way to learn what it is to choose Gods love. So in the end I am to live a life pleasing to God in love, so that he may use me and I may listen, so that I may by a servant of God. His creation created for a purpose. I am here at camp to better understand and listen to God so that I my be of love in love with Christ.
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